Hey, remember that thing that didnt happen?

my second piece in two days. i seem to be shaking off the rust pretty well. im very pleased with this one.

Never was (illusions of a fractured mind)

I'm trapped inside the memories of your eyes, a serenity I'll never know.

Your smile painted a picture, edged with happiness, a mire illusion of a grieving heart. Feeding me false hope to feel whole again, your laughter, an uplifting melody, now falls silent. My mind interlocked in the past, forced to suffer by the curl hands of time.

I feel lighter than normal...

finally! my first piece since September. this one revolves around my recent emotional issues.

hopefully its on par with my other pieces and dosnt showcase any writing rust i may have

Emptiness

Sever happiness with tearful discontent, swallowed whole by misery, i lay at agonies feet.
I Walk along the shattered visions of a better life, riving in heartache, crying with defining sorrow.
Empty soul and lifeless eyes, I carry this burden. Pleas fall def, life goes on as I suffocate.
Doomed to feel hollow, a mire shadow of what once was

Soulful thoughts 2: Dream Chronicles

another very dissapointing but interesting dream ive had


Last night marked the most emotionally cruel dream ive had. I was at some sort of outdoor gathering and BBQ with my old classmates and friends. I was sitting with my back to the wall, staring at the sky. Then she came. ___ in all her natural beauty. We spoke for a little while, i stood up and we embraced. She said to me something like “have you learnt your lesson trying with me?” or “are you going to try harder with me?” as i held her, i was lost for words but i managed to mutter “yes i will”. I and she headed to the BBQ. While on our way, i explained that although i write, its hard to describe her. I still feel there is 60% of her im still yet to describe (dream figures). After the festivities, i woke up. I looked around, hugely disappointed. I honestly said out loud once i woke “aw that was so cruel”

The Grass aint always greener

This was written based on current happenings in my life. written with a bitter taste in my mouth though, i believe its one of my best works. i hope all who read it will enjoy it.

Hypocrisy of the new world

Hypocritical propaganda falls from your every word

Narcissistic ego drowns out all but your own mind

A slave to something you wish you were

Force feeding self-lavished beliefs to those who care

Fuelled by your smug self-absorption as you lead us to the Promised Land

With every lie bringing you closer to personal nirvana, we fade to nothingness

With every lie, we blindly follow

untitled love poem

this is a concept piece i just got done with. its based around my first real experince with feeling for someone. again, i may be a bit rusty but the feeling is there.

As our eyes met, my world stood still, you laughter, your sweet serenity, the swansong to my heart. 

Your smile brought bliss, an unmatched radiance. With you, every day is a better tomorrow.

The moments bare a space in time, every memory brings me right back.

Every smile and laugh carved in the chronicles of my past. Fading but never gone

Stage fright

this piece was written shortly after 'vivid dreams of the longing' i went for the theatrical and dramatic with this one. 

the stage 

My heart pulses, synchronized to selfish agony,

Hollow despair writes the melody To my implosion, the soundtrack to my life.

Each line imbedded in my past disappointments, a lyrical massacre.

i take the stage, looking to find only shadows,

applauding my demise as they beg for an encore. The blackened crescendo draws my act to a close,

My final bow draped in sadness as the curtain seals my fate, a life sworn to failure, a life I lead 

It was only a dream......

hey guys! im back with another poem. this ones called 'vivid dreams of the longing'. i wrote this one about the recent dreams ive been having. i shall post, in detail, what the dreams were about so stay tuned!


Vivid dreams of the longing

Sleep brings a new world, impossibilities disarmed by an optimistic mind, 

Hope engulfs reality, drowning out the bitterness of a saddend past.

Cross over into perilous desire, our hearts sing to a better tomorrow. 

a silent divide bridged. lifes oncoming hurricane destroys what's not to be, 

fantasy self implodes, i loose my grip on what i dream

Solaced mind now lay in ruin, your swept away by the violent tide. 

The melodies of your sweet siren song now set with the rising sun.

Soulful memories volume: 2

meaning within the words

For now, I want to skip a head to 2009. This year for me was one I feel Passed me by. Many days of lounging around uninspired but, some good came out of it. I reconnected with an old friend, not knowing how much of an impact shed have on my life. One week I was feeling really ill. I was in bed quite alot. With that free time and my trusty iPod, I spoke with her some more. She brought up a song called 'love me for me' and asked me to listen to it. Im not an rnb guy by any stretch but I listened anyway. As we continued to speak, she mentioned how much the song meant to her and how she related to it. She told me shed looked everywhere for the lyrics but couldn't find them. Knowing how much the song meant to her, I wrote the lyrics by hand, sick and all. Listen after listen, I finished the lyrics (bar two words) her gratitude was amazing. Still to this day I remember how pleased she was, let alone, all the lyrics to the song.... Lol

New segment!

hey everyone! Im adding a new segment to, soulful madness: a haunted mind! In this segment, I look back and share some of my favorite memories thus far. After all, a haunted mind has it's high points too. 

I can do anything i want..im just too busy

Ha an edited futurama line for a post title? you know this ones gonna be good... this one, i also just wrote. the meaning is more or less, chase your dreams and live the life you want and make the most of your time or you'll regret it. a meaning im sure we can all relate to in some way 

The ambiance of a failed life

The longing, the thirst for vindication of hope. Time changes seasons with every hour, the leaves of opportunity wither and die yet,
The pulse of faith sounds, clinging onto fragments of unanswered prayers, you daydream a different future. Your misguided fantasy casts it's shadow, success turns its back. Your sad reality is all you have. Forever growing stronger in a failed life's ambiance 

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i just wrote this one a few minutes ago. this piece is about the kind of false hope i feel 

when it comes to love and its effects

disconnect

I'm living in the dream that is your smile, moving to the beat of your heart, you are the air I breathe.
Reality storms, this dream is empty.
Immobilized by an unseen entity, love conquers me, refusing to let go.
reliving heartbreak, deja vu depicting agony. I fail at freedom, slowly fading as my heart turns to nothingness. The air I once breathed now toxic vapor, filling my lungs with discontent

Soulful death metal

unlike my other works, this one wasn't written about a personal experience but, the concept of biological warfare. i have never successfully written death metal but, i took another shot. i think i delivered. 


all shall fall

Sadistic bio warfair, decaying the light less sky,

Mass genocide in the air we breathe

Inhale the man made infection

The body count rises, a statistic of the carnage, they will all circum.

incessant mutation, ravenous plague 

Forces all to anguish, day of reckoning brings this man made rapture Breathe in the toxic carnage of a world gone vile, all shall fall

Who you gonna call?

ahh hows that for a witty blog title?... heres one of my latest poems called 'ghost' this one is once more, written about a bad experience with romance and the after effects of all that happend. 


Ghost

You see right through me yet, you don't know who I am

Eyes trained like daggers

Attempted character assassination

False accusations feed your gluttonous ego, while the scraps fall for the masses, 

satisfying their judgmental lust

The me you loathe is the lie you believe

Spreading poison words while the truth remains tarnished

Your tainted psyche refuses to see

The person you hate is the man I will never be

do you feel a draft?

they say a picture says a thousand words, and your picture spoke volumes. i didnt quite get a thousand words but what i did get was a piece titled, 'the cold' as i touched on, this piece was written about my former crush and the feeling of being irreverent to her 


the cold

The merciless winter that are your eyes, they don't warm to me.

Loveless frozen slumber. My heart beats to the sorrow, the discontent.

Frost bitten are the hands I dreamt of holding you with. Your warmth evades them.

The ice has been broken and now I fall. 

My blood running colder with every thought of you, tears now frozen in time. 

With every thought, every dream, I grow colder.

Wanting time back

the meaning to this one is in the title itself, all about regret. it was, once again written about someone special and the things id do if i had my time over


Regret

if I spoke my mind, I'd speak of you.

My heart aches. Second chances Non existent. 

So many things I wish I'd done. 

Walking you to class when you were alone.

Holding your hand in mine.

making you smile for the sake of it as our hearts beat as one.

The sweet serenity in your eyes

In your honour

this one was also written in January of this year. inspired by a past crush, this is kinda an open letter to her. i thought id mix it up a bit and experiment. this is what i got out of it

in regards to you

Hey girl I wish you well

I hope your doing fine

I'm writing you this song so I hope you take the time

To find a way, To hear me out 

If this dosnt mean a thing to you then turn away

When I'm lost and can't be found And I'm sinking inside

The world dont seem so bad when I see it through your eyes

Time stands still When I see you smile, I hope this moment lasts forever.

So once again I'm well and I'm hoping your fine

I hope that I can see you again in time....

Embracing sorrow

this was my first piece of this year! i wrote this one back in January. entitled sorrow, it depicts my emotional issues and the aftermath of my worst heartbreak. personally, to this day, i believe that sorrow is still one of my most badass pieces

sorrow

My heart decays, Ever descending into emptiness

Crying tears of self desire.

Scream my lungs out, the walls are closing in. 

Trapped in my own self destruction

 I look inside to see your face, your blank and loveless eyes

reaching for your hand, the glass it slashes mine.

Blood letting my deepest sorrow, You fade away

Inside my soul is hollow , Falling away

Blood letting my deepest sorrow , You fade away

Crying tears of self desire, My heart decays

Reaching a milestone

yesterday, i hit my first 100 views on this blog. it may not seem like much but its a milestone that im very proud of. a huge thank you to those who took the time to check my blog out. i hope that you have taken something out of my works and that you keep coming back for more. i write from the heart and from my experiences and i hope it shows. once more, to all of you, thank you so much, may this be the start of something great! 

Glue aint gonna fix this

this is the second of two of my most heartfelt and emotional works ever. about the same heartbreak as 'turning the page' was. after days of crying over the heartbreak, i took to my writing to help ease my pain and, this was the result


delusions of a broken heart

The night is quiet, im holding tight how happiness changes with in a blink of an eye

Im kicking rocks along this barren road where time, it goes so slow 
How can i live for tomorrow when today wont go?

So now im stranded cold and alone Hoping somehow you'll call me and say you love me back, i know that cant happen, i must understand, its just a delusion of a broken heart.

Here come the water works

we go now from upbeat to rock bottom depression. this piece was one of two poems i wrote about my most painful heartbreak ever. i actually got very emotional while writing this one. even now, its hard to read for me. none the less, my heart went into this one and i think it delivers an emotional kick to those who read it. 

turning the page (dreams of kissing you)

Now i wake to my harsh reality. That I’m not waking to your face.

My heart beats to your personality but its clear im not the one.

I could cry my tears to form a lake, i could try to write my way out of this emotionally fragile state

But i’ll try to take the hurting the only way i can in hope that one day im a stronger man

Never gonna dry your eyes, never gonna hold you in my arms, never gonna fly like and eagle and reach for the stars. I’ll think of you all day and cry through the night but, i’ll turn the page when i reach the stage, where dreams of kissing you say goodbye