It was only a dream......

hey guys! im back with another poem. this ones called 'vivid dreams of the longing'. i wrote this one about the recent dreams ive been having. i shall post, in detail, what the dreams were about so stay tuned!


Vivid dreams of the longing

Sleep brings a new world, impossibilities disarmed by an optimistic mind, 

Hope engulfs reality, drowning out the bitterness of a saddend past.

Cross over into perilous desire, our hearts sing to a better tomorrow. 

a silent divide bridged. lifes oncoming hurricane destroys what's not to be, 

fantasy self implodes, i loose my grip on what i dream

Solaced mind now lay in ruin, your swept away by the violent tide. 

The melodies of your sweet siren song now set with the rising sun.

Soulful memories volume: 1

I thought id start with a memory from my last school year. it surely had its lows but, it did produce some standout moments for me. disclaimer: any names have not been included due to confidentiality purposes    

Her 

2008 was an emotionally draining year for me. I was flunking school and growing very depressed. Late that year, my class of 10D were given an assignment; to work with a grade two class from deer park north primary school, my old stomping yard, and create an original story. With the preparation finished, my class headed off to deer park north to work with out grade two partners. As we were leaving, I noticed 'her'. A friend and crush of mine, she was struggling with her heavy bag. One after another, my class mates would pass her by, without even a second glance as she dragged her bag across the floor. It saddened me. There was no way I'd pass her by. I gladly helped her by taking her bag from her. The walk to the primary school was great. We spoke to each other and joked, just like old times. For that short time, the stress of the year vanished. I didn't want anything in return for my kindness but, the smile she gave me made my heart race. Her memories of me may fade, but the image of her smile that day will stay with me

I can do anything i want..im just too busy

Ha an edited futurama line for a post title? you know this ones gonna be good... this one, i also just wrote. the meaning is more or less, chase your dreams and live the life you want and make the most of your time or you'll regret it. a meaning im sure we can all relate to in some way 

The ambiance of a failed life

The longing, the thirst for vindication of hope. Time changes seasons with every hour, the leaves of opportunity wither and die yet,
The pulse of faith sounds, clinging onto fragments of unanswered prayers, you daydream a different future. Your misguided fantasy casts it's shadow, success turns its back. Your sad reality is all you have. Forever growing stronger in a failed life's ambiance 

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i just wrote this one a few minutes ago. this piece is about the kind of false hope i feel 

when it comes to love and its effects

disconnect

I'm living in the dream that is your smile, moving to the beat of your heart, you are the air I breathe.
Reality storms, this dream is empty.
Immobilized by an unseen entity, love conquers me, refusing to let go.
reliving heartbreak, deja vu depicting agony. I fail at freedom, slowly fading as my heart turns to nothingness. The air I once breathed now toxic vapor, filling my lungs with discontent

Soulful death metal

unlike my other works, this one wasn't written about a personal experience but, the concept of biological warfare. i have never successfully written death metal but, i took another shot. i think i delivered. 


all shall fall

Sadistic bio warfair, decaying the light less sky,

Mass genocide in the air we breathe

Inhale the man made infection

The body count rises, a statistic of the carnage, they will all circum.

incessant mutation, ravenous plague 

Forces all to anguish, day of reckoning brings this man made rapture Breathe in the toxic carnage of a world gone vile, all shall fall

Who you gonna call?

ahh hows that for a witty blog title?... heres one of my latest poems called 'ghost' this one is once more, written about a bad experience with romance and the after effects of all that happend. 


Ghost

You see right through me yet, you don't know who I am

Eyes trained like daggers

Attempted character assassination

False accusations feed your gluttonous ego, while the scraps fall for the masses, 

satisfying their judgmental lust

The me you loathe is the lie you believe

Spreading poison words while the truth remains tarnished

Your tainted psyche refuses to see

The person you hate is the man I will never be

do you feel a draft?

they say a picture says a thousand words, and your picture spoke volumes. i didnt quite get a thousand words but what i did get was a piece titled, 'the cold' as i touched on, this piece was written about my former crush and the feeling of being irreverent to her 


the cold

The merciless winter that are your eyes, they don't warm to me.

Loveless frozen slumber. My heart beats to the sorrow, the discontent.

Frost bitten are the hands I dreamt of holding you with. Your warmth evades them.

The ice has been broken and now I fall. 

My blood running colder with every thought of you, tears now frozen in time. 

With every thought, every dream, I grow colder.

I got a feeling....

yes maybe the title of this post was a black eyed peas reference... looks like i ran out of witty titles..
this piece is one of my few short stories, if you can call it that. its a piece all about the pros and cons of love and emotion


Feel

In life we feel many emotions,

From the simple joy of looking at a star lit night sky to a laugh shared among friends.

Everyone feels. But there comes a time where you meet someone, someone who makes those feelings more powerful.

 Who with a smile can make your heart sore among the clouds, someone who makes life seem perfect yet real.

 But what if these feelings fall of def ears? You give your heart only for it to be given back. What do you do then?.

The perfect world of your hearts disire does not come to furistion. The happiness turns to tears with every memory. 

What if you had your time back again? What would you change? Judgement is blinded by passion as your heart aches. 

Maybe there's a second chance somewhere.

You seem to be shrouded by a black cloud until, one day, the emotional storm passes and your ready to love again.

 Everyone feels but it's those who make us feel weather high or low that make life worth while.

Wanting time back

the meaning to this one is in the title itself, all about regret. it was, once again written about someone special and the things id do if i had my time over


Regret

if I spoke my mind, I'd speak of you.

My heart aches. Second chances Non existent. 

So many things I wish I'd done. 

Walking you to class when you were alone.

Holding your hand in mine.

making you smile for the sake of it as our hearts beat as one.

The sweet serenity in your eyes

In your honour

this one was also written in January of this year. inspired by a past crush, this is kinda an open letter to her. i thought id mix it up a bit and experiment. this is what i got out of it

in regards to you

Hey girl I wish you well

I hope your doing fine

I'm writing you this song so I hope you take the time

To find a way, To hear me out 

If this dosnt mean a thing to you then turn away

When I'm lost and can't be found And I'm sinking inside

The world dont seem so bad when I see it through your eyes

Time stands still When I see you smile, I hope this moment lasts forever.

So once again I'm well and I'm hoping your fine

I hope that I can see you again in time....

Embracing sorrow

this was my first piece of this year! i wrote this one back in January. entitled sorrow, it depicts my emotional issues and the aftermath of my worst heartbreak. personally, to this day, i believe that sorrow is still one of my most badass pieces

sorrow

My heart decays, Ever descending into emptiness

Crying tears of self desire.

Scream my lungs out, the walls are closing in. 

Trapped in my own self destruction

 I look inside to see your face, your blank and loveless eyes

reaching for your hand, the glass it slashes mine.

Blood letting my deepest sorrow, You fade away

Inside my soul is hollow , Falling away

Blood letting my deepest sorrow , You fade away

Crying tears of self desire, My heart decays

Glue aint gonna fix this

this is the second of two of my most heartfelt and emotional works ever. about the same heartbreak as 'turning the page' was. after days of crying over the heartbreak, i took to my writing to help ease my pain and, this was the result


delusions of a broken heart

The night is quiet, im holding tight how happiness changes with in a blink of an eye

Im kicking rocks along this barren road where time, it goes so slow 
How can i live for tomorrow when today wont go?

So now im stranded cold and alone Hoping somehow you'll call me and say you love me back, i know that cant happen, i must understand, its just a delusion of a broken heart.

This ones for the birds

i wrote this with the intention of turning a painful experience into kinda an upbeat piece. the lyrics may be a little sad but, my work is always open to new interpretations  


you may be human but id take owl girl anyday

I should have known should have seen it all along, to be wary of the trap you laid. 

Now i free fall into heartbreak, try to find my way out but, the only way up is down. 

Turn that smile upside down to build a bridge, nowhere boundyou’ll find me some way, somehow

with every step i take, with every move you make; you just keep me coming back for more.  

I don’t regret all the time that i spent chancing you but the time that I was running I could have built that bridge to get me over you.

It takes two

this piece is a very special one because it was inspired by my best friend. she came up with a acoustic guitar melody and i wrote the lyrics around it. alot of heart went into this one.


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Hold on because im coming home, the smile on your face I just cant let go

The touch of your hands, the look in your eyes, fall sweetly into my arms under starlit sky

In this moment, here together, I look to heaven and drift away

In this moment, forever more

Ode to solitude

solace was difficult to find during my bad patches of mental illness. second guessing and over thinking were not uncommon. this one is about myself and the search for happiness. the title of this blog is a homage to HIM.


solace (thrive or be forgotten)

Hope, fades to nothing, defeat dominates.

We search our very souls for answers yet to find

When fate is wrong can we stand in its path?

Is our existence portrayed in black and white?

Do we venture for something more or just say goodbye?

Break down the walls of heartbreak

Yearn for solace

Blinded we reach the end

Will we thrive or be forgotten?

Force fed the sands of time

Will we thrive or be forgotten?

our existence portrayed in black and white

(Will we thrive or be forgotten?)

Force fed the sands of time

(Will we thrive or be forgotten?)

Forever seeking solace

(Will we thrive or be forgotten?